So I took my grandmothers advice and decided to go to the hospital and request the results of all of my recent tests. This way I can see exactly what they found without having to hear a watered down version from my doctor. Today I am very glad that I took her advice.

I went to the hospital this afternoon and picked up a copy of the test results. I waited til I got out in the car to open the envelope and look at them. Uterus, fine. Ovaries, fine. Found several Nabothian cysts in the cervix.

I looked up Nabothian cysts online with my phone. I found this.
Nabothian cysts are considered harmless and usually disappear on their own, although some will persist indefinitely. Some women notice they appear and disappear in relation to their menstrual cycle. If a woman is not sure the anomaly she has found on her cervix is a nabothian cyst, a visit to a doctor is recommended to rule out other conditions.

Rarely, nabothian cysts have a correlation with chronic cervicitis, an inflammatory infection of the cervix.

Nabothian cysts are not considered problematic unless they grow very large and present secondary symptoms. A physician may wish to perform a colposcopy or biopsy on a nabothian cyst to check for cancer or other problems. Two methods for removing these cysts include electrocautery and cryofreezing, although new cysts may form after the procedure.

Ok so it might not be so bad, except what if your menstrual cycle doesn't stop, do the cysts go away? I figure I'm a special case on this one so I want to get a biopsy done soon.


My doctor's nurse called me about an hour after I got the papers to tell me the news. I knew what I was going to hear already but I let her tell me. She says, "The tests show that your ovaries are fine and your uterus is fine and there is nothing wrong." Nothing about any cysts.... So I said, well then what in the world is wrong with me. She asked if I was still having problems.

I said "yes I am! I am constantly in pain, I am always dizzy, tired, and weak. The spots on my stomach are spreading and getting bigger. I haven't had an appetite in 3 weeks and I have had more and more migraines so bad that I cant do anything but cry in the dark and wait them out. I am not ok there HAS to be something wrong!!!"

She then asked me if I was still bleeding. "YES!!" She says "ok then I'll talk to your doctor and call you back."

I didn't feel it was necessary to let her know that I knew about the test results at that time.

So a little later she calls back. They want me to do a colon screening test. You know cause my digestive track is definately why my period lasts for 9 months straight and why I have mind numbing cramps.

I ask her more about the test. I said "So does the doctor from the hospital talk to my doctor directly or just send over a paper?"
"He just sends over a paper."
"Oh ok, and it said everything is fine?"
"Yea everything is good."
"What about the several cysts in my cervix?"
"What?" (plays dumb)
"The cysts in my cervix"
"I don't know what you are talking about"
"Well From my understanding we are looking at the same paper right now. I went and got a copy of the test earlier. Below where it says my uterus is fine and above where it says my ovaries are fine it says that I have several cysts in my cervix."
(silence)
"Oh well your doctor said not to worry about that, Its common and don't worry about it"
"well I read online that it can turn into cancer. I would like to have a biopsy done that way I know we covered everything."
"Hang on let me talk to your doctor" (on hold) "Still there?"
"yes" (annoyed....)
"Well its not possible to do a biopsy on those types of cysts..." (lying through her teeth)
"Well you know what, I'll find a way...."
(Click)

Nice huh? If I wouldn't have taken my grandmothers advice I wouldn't know about the cysts and basically would think its all in my head....Meanwhile the cysts could be growing larger and turning into cancer (if it hasn't already) without my knowledge. Then when they finally see its become a problem its too late and I die of cancer....

I am going to find a doctor who actually cares about human beings and ask them to take care of this. I am so mad and depressed at the same time that I don't know what to do...

Meanwhile while I have all of this bullshit going on I haven't been able to get a hold of my best friend about anything....I feel like shit all of the time because of my health and being sad all the time doesn't help....

I don't know how I'm going to get through this....I can't pay any of my regular bills because I've been missing so much work let alone how I am going to get help paying medical bills....the only way I can get medicare is if I get pregnant....
What the fuck is wrong with this country? I an American citizen my whole life, living in I guess what would be considered poverty my entire life, cannot get any kind of assistance with health care unless I am either an old person, or if I'm pregnant....
The doctors here in America don't give a shit about humanity, only about making money. Doing unnecessary tests, and keeping their patients sick just so they can make more money..... this is fucked up....

I need a hug....
but
I'm alone....